man

All things in life can change unexpectedly.  Without notice you could lose your job, home, car, or family.  Some people move from relationship to relationship with little to no problems at all.  Others are not so lucky.  The pain and torment of losing a part of their life cannot be easily calmed.  The hurt runs so deep that the wounds never heal.  They keep hoping for a change that never comes.

Change happens in the blink of an eye

Love, a pain like no other
Taking a chance means making a cut
A small incision, just enough
To bleed out slowly, over time
Dying a slow death, but oh so painful
How bad can I be
How sad my existence
How grotesque are my feelings
That they would push her away
They all say they want compassion
Yet they go to the uncompassionate
They all say they want understanding
Yet they go to the ones who don’t understand
Maybe I’m not the alpha male
Because I cry, I am weak
Perhaps that is why
I show my feelings and it disturbs her
I have to hide my emotions
I have to become one of them
A man, just a man
Grrr, hear me roar
Is that the way to keep a woman
Is that what they want
Beat on my chest, don’t sing the song
Don’t write the poems
Don’t care until it’s too late
Get me a beer, do this, do that
I can’t be that person
I would rather be alone
I write better sad anyway
Waiting to see the future
Scared of being alone
Wondering how to love again
Rolling the dice with all of your chips on the table
Understanding the pain of guilt
Understanding the pain I’ve caused
I can help by staying away
I cry with just the thought
Pictures keep me company
Dreams keep me going
My dreams may end
My life a failure
My love unwanted
My words unread
My thoughts unwritten
My pen silent
My paper blank
My bed empty
I may go to sleep
I may not wake up
I may be alone
I am now
I think of her
I think of them
Missing something
Wanting something
Never fulfilled
Opportunities missed
Alone together in spite
I will love her forever
Regardless of how she feels
The pain of love will see me through
It will keep me going
Until I can go no more
As I rest my head for the final time
And as I blink the last blink
The moment my heart stops beating
Before my soul leaves this shell
I will see the light, and I will look back
I will see her, but she will not see me
I will love her, one last time
I will hold her, and cry
I will smell her, and remember
I will want her, in vain
I will need her, forever
I will set her free, and leave
No more tears, no more pain
I will finally sleep a good sleep
But I will never stop being me